Here it is , the rut. I heard so much about this rut, this madness of feeling stagnant and otherwise without direction. Is it a rough patch? Perhaps writer’s remorse? That drudged old nemesis that is my brain saying, “You only had one good story didn’t you? Told ya!”
I wallow in the thought as I have little to no motivation to start something new. Yes there is the project WIP that I’ve already got several chapters into, and yes the characters speak to me everyday. But where is my motivation? Perhaps I need a muse. Perhaps I need a swift quick in the posterior. Am I a has-been after only two books and one manual? Could it be?
I need another outlet. I stare at the walls, into the infinite span of gray that clouds my mind and I strive to find more channels to push my story into, but it seems all avenues have been charted on my map of marketing. Is there more? How much more time can I afford to give up into marketing for forty hours to maybe make one sale, maybe? I could’ve been writing, I say to myself, but when I’m writing I think I should be marketing and so instead I find myself working on small projects at home instead.
It occurred to me that maybe I was upset at the lack of funds to publish another book. I’m dead set against using KDP Select as my only means to publish. Besides, there are other costs to incur: editing, formatting, purchase of an ISBN, and the actual cost to publish. With all that on my plate I opted to take on another job which, ironically, puts me back as a self-marketer or independent distributor for a popular body toning program (can’t mention just yet as I have not been formally approved to blog it).
Then I made another decision in my vast list of procrastination techniques: I’ll start a blog about nursing. After all, I am a nurse and it is a major part of my life. I have many stories to tell about this career aspect of my life . . . and the procrastination continues. Did I mention my backyard is thriving with fruits and veggies? Not an easy thing to do in California’s high desert region . . . procrastination also yields fruit.
I’m at a loss. So what do you do when you feel you’ve exhausted all your resources and find yourself dead center in the middle of a rut? All suggestions and comments welcomed.
Tania L Ramos, Author, RN . . . rut!
If you’re in the middle of a rut or procrastination, enjoy this fun video of my daughter singing in the car, here.